O Happy Day
3:46 p.m. - 2003-04-19

Its funny I usually write when im sad or depressed-because Im never happy.

Its weird to feel this happy, im not used to it, but being with him makes me happy-I have never felt like this before.

I cant stop thinking about him-its funny because this is what I have always wanted....but could never find.

I don't know...am I making a mistake? I always second guess myself...

Im just afraid of getting hurt...i dunno its just me being me I guess-but i am really scared, I have never felt this way so im just afraid of getting way too attatched i see it happening already...

Well I need to go clean...and take a nap...im not going to the party tonight-my mom told me its not my scene...I dont want to be in paterson after 1am anyway....plus I know Frank does not want me to go...so for that reason alone im not going...

Tara and Anthony like Frank...which is good because I want my friends to like him...they also told me im in love....but im not.....dont get me wrong I really like Frank...but I dont believe in love..I have never had it in a relationship...I dunno...

maybe someday.....

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