Tears
10:31 p.m. - 2002-09-24

I just got finished crying.

Over nothing.

I felt like I was PMSing...ya know the feeling girls, where a little squirrell getting hit by a car makes you so sad you want to join an animal rights club.

I just couldnt stop crying, and to make matters unbarebly worse I read my favorite poem by ee Cummings..."i carry your heart with me"....

I just want to be with him so bad. And the fact that he cant drive now and that i am 19 years old without my permit totaly sucks and is keeping me from seeing him.

God, i miss him.

I never thought i would miss him this much, and its not like i am 800 miles away like i was before...im 15 min.

..............my heart hurts............

stupid dinner mom made has been giving me freaking heart burn

nothing makes sense anymore

he says im %100 girlfriend material...yeah but how come i am %100 alone?

I am going to wait till 12 for his call...after that i am going to go smoke a cig then crash on my bed....my life is so exciting now...

do you think there is anything wrong with wanting to be in a relationship so bad, thats all you ever think about? and i know that i really like him...im not just wanting to be in a relationship that bad that i would fake my feelings for someone just so i could be someones g/f.

my life is so screwed up.........

well im going to go...i may see him tomorrow...if you want to put bets on the fact that i wont see him...you might as well..free money in your pocket.....

Lisa

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