...[Someone wake me from my nightmare]...
12:16 a.m. - 2003-10-02
...[Someone wake me from my nightmare]...
12:16 a.m. - 2003-10-02
"Breathe in right away, nothing seems
To fill this place
I need this every time, take your
Lies get off my case
Some day I will find, a love that flows
Through me like this
This will fall away, this will fall away
You're getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life's little edge
Cause I'm a loser and sooner or later
You know I'll be dead
You're getting closer, you're holding the
Rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I'm a loser, I'm a loser, yeah
This is getting cold, I can't break these
Chains that I hold
My body's growing cold, there's nothing
Left of this mind or my sould
Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of
This poison is taking me higher
This will fall away, this will fall away
You're getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life's little edge
Cause I'm a loser and sooner or later
You know I'll be dead
You're getting closer, you're holding the
Rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I'm a loser, I'm a loser!
You're getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life's little edge
Cause I'm a loser and sooner or later
You know I'll be dead
You're getting closer, you're holding the
Rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I'm a loser
You're getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life's little edge
Cause I'm a loser and sooner or later
You know I'll be dead
You're getting closer, you're holding the
Rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I'm a loser."
I cannot begin to descirbe the pain i have in my heart. I cried infront of my Family, and Paul tonight. Everything has come to a head all at once. Im having to deal with everything at the same time, and i am way to stressed out. I have come to the realization that i owe almost 5Grand in totally paying everybody off. Im so stressed out with school and having a class everyday. Then with Paul. My life is on overload. I think my best friend hates me. In my destruction mode that i have been in for the past two weeks i think i have made her upset with me.
and for this i am sorry.
I dont know what to do with myself.