Love doesnt exist
3:10 p.m. - 2003-07-31

I have work in less then an hour. Grrrr.

I have been doing a lot of thinking. And i think i know why im afraid of commitment and all that mushy gushy stuff. I realized if i let myself care for someone and fall in love then that means i will get hurt. If i shut myself out and not let myself fall in love i cant get hurt. I dont understand how people fall in love. Dont they know they are lieing to themselves? How can you know your going to feel the same way forever? And if your not sure then why even bother? Im not sure what I feel anymore. But i know that i cant fall in love. I wont let myself. I have more important things to worry about. This school year be prepared to hardly hear from me. Im going to be working and studying for school. I would love to get A's in all my classes and if that means having to study everynight then so be it. My dream school is NYU...now I know that wont happen, but it doesnt mean i wont work my ass off.

Well I have work in a half hour....

gotta jet....

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